This week was a rough one. It started out with an attack on me by someone who is very angry with me. Although it was verbal, and I have been through it before with this person, it still affected me. Apparently, when I was used to having these verbal attacks more frequently, I was numb to them. But now that it has been a few weeks, it was a good jab to the heart and mind. I am okay and will move forward, but knowing someone you loved, and who used to love you, now really seems to hate you and treats you that way, it sucks. Its a terrible feeling to know someone hates you. Hopefully, with time as a helper, we can be friendly with eachother and civil. I wish for that for my sake, but more importantly for Sydney's sake.
On Tuesday, my family said farewell to Sanibel (Sanny). A family doggy, at 14 years old she was not well. She had gone from 18ish pounds to 10.5 pounds over 8 months, was not eating well, and was vomiting alot. My parents got her when she was around 2 years old. I remember the day they picked her up. I lived in an apartment in Milwaukee with Sean at the time, and they chose our home to introduce Sanny and Shadow...neutral ground. The dogs were put in the livingroom with the door closed, and they duked it out for a few minutes. Rank was established and Shadow was the leader of the pack. Sanny was a good sister to Shadow, and became a good sister to Oliver when he moved in. She may have been a grumpier dog than normal, have health issues on and off, and may have been snappy, but we all adored her and she was very loving (on her terms). It was time for her to go, and she seemed ready. The Rainbow Bridge accepted her within 2-3 seconds of the medicine being given...and the sun was shining to allow for an easy trip. We are all pretty sure Sacha was on the other end of the bridge to welcome her "home" and now she runs free with no pain, playing with her puppy friends, and cuddling with Sacha.
So...as this week moves farther into the past, I will focus on making each day count...being the best mommy to Sydney (and Clover) that I can, and being a great friend, sister, aunt, cousin, daughter, and sister-in-law to my family.
Just remember..."Just keep swimming..." Thanks Dory.